Jewells of Thought

Even with the past hectic week, today was special. You know how it goes with planning well this came together kind of last minute. The results though hit the mark. Mom got to have a birthday she wanted.

Today allowed me to take a step back from some this crazy week and give Mom what she has really been wanting. Me at church with her and Dad. It turns out this was needed for me to have a perspective change. My head has been conflicted with a few decisions that need to be made. Plus it’s good to get hugs and see friends I don’t get to see all the time. I especially needed that this morning.

Thankfully Mom’s other birthday gift was to have her family at dinner today. I didn’t know Dad had seen to it that we would all be there. In total we had 10 with a couple of extra cousins with us to eat at Backstreet. I don’t remember eating there on a Sunday afternoon ever. I do remember grabbing pizza’s to go from there for supper on the way home from a vacation for one of my brother’s birthdays. Otherwise we don’t get over that direction too much on Sundays.

Sunday School this morning in Ecclesiastes 2. We were talking about a time to hate and a time for peace I am paraphrasing the verse of course. I don’t remember the last time I heard a sermon on this passage. It was very intriguing and clarifying to listen to for the 30 or so minutes. There are different times and seasons in life like, Mom’s birthday. I feel like my life is in a holding pattern not able to move until Bryan can finally join me.

Unfortunately the long distance is mind numbing. There is a process going on and it’s not finished, but waiting for it to do so is frustrating beyond measure. There are times I feel it will never happen and I need to pull the plug on the whole thing; I have never been so unstable like this and I have a pretty good reason it’s because I’m taking a pill that regulates a system for me. The alternative though was exhaustive and scary at times before having it. I don’t want to jeopardize this relationship we are good together. The pitfalls to an online, long-distance relationship just has too many to bear sometimes. He keeps steadying me though.

The sermon was on the Good Samaritan. Again the story was highlighted and clarified for me. It’s also been a while since I have heard this from the pulpit. I do have a very good book detailing a unique viewpoint of this storyline. I might have to revisit that book soon.

Somehow though we still haven’t exactly had cake yet. I owe Mom a cake. It’s nice being able to make my parents’ wishes come true. I was always with them for Mother’s Day, Father’s Day and their birthdays. Then when I exercised my ability to find my own church family I made it my mission to still be there for Fathers and Mother’s Days always until more recently.

Love is powerful. Try to keep it in the right perspective. A change of perspective is sometimes needed to keep relationships strong and to show how important each one truly is to us… for a parent or a significant other.