Jewells of Thought

The day that was instrumental in my decision to once again share the intricacies God reveals behind a snapshot of a moment in my life. Two Saturdays ago was that day. So many things had to happen a certain way for me to have an open heart to appreciate the layered beauty of the Mother’s Day Banquet.

Then this past weekend again, so many more instances occurred before that day to make that Saturday afternoon as special and unique as it was in as many ways as the week before. Yet the event was different adding another mystique to how God works in our lives daily and brings people in our lives for seasons and perhaps more than one season into our lives.

The beauty and grace God shows us through our lives amazes me. Community and how God uses our family and our church family to minister to us and to each other absolutely overwhelms me like it has lately. Trying to explain this past Saturday in a text to my boyfriend was so difficult I told him it was simply impossible at that moment in time. I had to digest it all first still, it was too soon to describe accurately.

One of the reasons it was difficult to describe is because I have been having more allergic reactions since Friday night. For some odd reason I had nearly a month of a lull where I had nothing from my brother or my niece. I had begun to believe my nightmare was over. I became a little lax and all of a sudden it’s Monday and I have now had 4 different reactions including Friday. I am very confused and even more paranoid. It took longer today to get over the reaction because I didn’t take the right medicine which didn’t help.

During that banquet from the first Saturday the speaker mentioned the phrase that I can’t seem to get out of my head. It was, “Don’t waste your pain.” I have wanted to expand on that idea and type more and yet the puppies have taken a chunk of my time since then as well.

Why am I dealing with the pain of these allergic reactions and why did they lull for a month? I am still looking for the correlation between that phrase and my recent pain and how to deal with it in a healthy way like she mentioned she did. There are ways I have used this phrase effectively. The pain was more emotional than physical in most of those instances. Another topic from this past Saturday I broached with an old friend.