Jewells of Thought

March 10, 2025

Yes it has been a little while since I have posted. Several things have been going on. Honestly, I have felt a little lost for a bit already this year. It took three phone calls in order to get on the schedule. However, I have heard that the timing is everything.

Lately I have been reading a book from Mesu Andrews about King David’s Brides. Cultural issues of that time period still leave me unsettled about polygamy with our anointed Warrior-Shepherd King and his wives. Until this book I didn’t realize Ahinoam was his second wife and now I see a different version of him from the book I have about Bathsheba from Angela Hunt. This is what I miss about teaching Sunday School and writing the church newsletter. Putting some of this together and asking the obvious questions and what-ifs!

Also last week I went through a Pre-Op appointment up at the hospital I will be having the surgery. Three years ago this wasn’t an option probably because of Covid. Lately driving long distances has been a bit of an issue for me. So Dad as tired as he was from work came off his night shift to drive me to my appointment. Fortunately it was late enough it worked out for him to make it back within a good time frame to get ready for work that night. God was in the details that night the entire plant lost power and Dad along with my brother got to come home much earlier before 11 pm even. It was a Godsend for sure.

Due to thinking I was already on the surgery list at the beginning of the year I didn’t think I would finish my dogs in the truck piece. I was absolutely wrong. In fact I have spent a lot of time working on it lately as well as on some other special little pieces for some pillows. It keeps me busy and I really enjoy the steady rhythm of making the stitches. Plus when I finish a picture and begin to look for the fabric for the pillow it still surprises me to find the perfect one in my stock. I still have Mom’s classmate to thank for that amazing stock of fabric. It has been a treasure trove for me to finish my pillows with I am truly grateful for her gift last year.

The Friday I got the call that gave me my surgery date allowed me a measure of peace. Not having the date really made me feel like I had no control over my life. I know that I don’t, only God has control, but I felt uneasy about everything because of that. There were some other things, but this was the key to getting things going in the right direction in my mind.

Time has allowed me to see that timing is better left to God. The weekend before my birthday and Inauguration Day we Mom and I received our new recumbent bike. We had kept our Christmas money and looked for some good deals. We saved $200 on a $340 bike it was such a blessing. The difference in my time and God’s time was I hadn’t been able to walk for exercise since early October. In January I didn’t feel fit or really healthy. I have had about 2 months to create a new routine with that bike and I do feel more fit than I did for surgery. I feel toned up more my clothes are bigger I am now going into this surgery feeling healthy. I have even cut out pop by drinking one every other day. It really wasn’t hard to do. I feel like a different woman from the time of my birthday and in a good way.

Some different thoughts have been going through my mind today and I still have a few chapters left in my book to finish. Sometimes it takes me a couple of days to process a book once I’m finished. I have been taking this book slower because I know the story. Sometimes that makes it harder knowing what’s coming. My thoughts are all over the place the author goes back and forth between David and Ahinoam’s perspective from chapter to chapter. Maybe I’ll have a clearer idea of my thoughts tomorrow…

I am now 4 days away from surgery day and for some reason my boyfriend thinks I’m nervous. This is my 6th surgery… I never thought I would say those words, and waiting is the one thing right now that is making me anxious.

I trust my Doctor and I have been in this hospital before and through this surgery before. Plus I know my Dad will pray with me before surgery like we did before only this time Mom will be with us. Last time it was Dad and my younger brother James slightly different, but I am ready and I know God will be in control. This surgery will help me to get past this congenital issue and be done with it hopefully after this year. God has prepared me for each of these surgeries in different ways. I feel physically, emotionally and spiritually prepared this time more than ever.