Jewells of Thought

Goodness… I have been without words for much of the past 3 to 4 weeks. Not just the busy atmosphere of the Seasons either. I enjoy writing when I have something I believe I can share with others, but lately everything in my life feels complicated.

When I found this cross-stitch piece Selena was the first person I thought of the second one was Gina Lovelace. This is still nowhere near finished it is just a small rectangle of a more massive finished piece to come…

The Christmas of 2019 was amazing even though we were certain it would lead to Grandmas last Christmas with us. I remember being in a boot and having my second carpal tunnel release a week before Christmas, but it all worked out for us. I had it planned I got the Stocking Stuffers finished the night before my surgery. One of the gifts I received from Ms. Gina that year was a calender for 2020 and a card wishing me the best for that year. Little did we know what was to happen.

Now five years later I have the President Elect I wanted and an amazing cabinet for the Senate to vote on in the coming weeks. Yet I feel off. My surgery has still not been set and the pain in my wrist has been hurting more at different times. I called at the beginning of the New Year and they were still figuring out a schedule, but I was assured I was still on the list and they would get a hold of me. I really wanted to get that surgery over and done with more than I thought I suppose. Sunday night though was the first time I really felt my arm hurt at night in bed. I had to put a compression hose on my arm from the last surgery for support and comfort.

Not everything feels as hunky dory even with the wonderful new administration taking over on my birthday in just less than a week. Then there’s the milestone again. Turning forty without Bryan here still kind of hits me a bit another missed event together. So I hate to say this is a pity party although maybe it is in ways. I am literally in limbo though until I get my surgery date set. The one thing I have looked forward to is foot therapy. Insurance has now, in full so far, given me 14 sessions. There are just two more to go. I kind of understand why Uncle Mike thought Dialysis sessions were like Social Hour. I have gotten to make new friends and converse with dear friends from church, several actually. It’s also really warm in that room while we have dealt with snow and frigid temperatures this winter season.

Ironically cross-stitch hasn’t given me much pain by itself. Driving and moving my wrist in different positions has or of course holding books or choir folders. Just holding a beloved Hymnal for congregational singing takes a toll on my wrist just as much as the folder. Or sometimes it just aches without doing anything like Sunday night. Although it was cold so maybe the weather affected it more like it has done during the day some.

The fires in Los Angeles also affected me quite a bit. Bryan is living there and fortunately is not in the area affected. However, his co-worker and best friend did lose his home and fortunately together these best friends, rather quickly, found a small apartment for his family to live in. This is just one story of countless Angelinos who are so bereft and exhausted emotionally and physically at what has transpired in the past week and a half. Bryan was happy to help his dear friend and able to give back to the friend who has given him just as much support over the years. I owe this man a big hug and a Thank You if I ever get to meet him in the future.

I don’t know what will happen in the next few days or even weeks. Except that I will turn 40 and Trump will be President once again even though it seems like he’s already the sitting President.

Right before Christmas I bought this cross-stitch set on clearance not thinking I would actually have time to work on it until at least summer of this year. It turns out I have had some time.

This year will be exciting to see the effects of Trump’s second Presidency. Hopefully this wintry cloud over my head will brighten up and clear away. There are too many reasons to be engulfed in what might have been maybe this is God’s will to wait in limbo a bit for more clarity for different reasons I can’t see right now. I pray you all have a Blessed New Year. Maybe I can use my recent book reads to encourage more posts over the next few days. Some ideas have spurred I have just been in this limbo of not knowing when the surgery day will be set. Have a beautiful day everyone!