Jewells of Thought

The election four years ago… led to this result. Late on Tuesday night maybe more so Wednesday morning I began thinking. Maybe too much. So much has happened in the past years since 2020.

In 2020 on Election night I will never forget how I felt. There was an eerie feeling as I looked at the map and saw the numbers in Trumps direction. Then all of a sudden at the very same time magically the numbers began going in the opposition’s favor. Somehow that was not suspicious and no Democrat thought it was worth looking into as the Republicans did.

It was that night that I got that eerie feeling that never went away. Perhaps it was the spirit of evil that caught me off guard and I knew so much was wrong with that election. I was not alone though, but it was not something that could be conversed about in public without clashing. That feeling ended up turning into a dread that succumbed in January to a feeling of numbness. This election was stolen from us and yet without this loss I might have never been found on this very different platform called Telegram.

I still remember a major magazine coming out and saying that this group of Liberals came together to cheat Trump out of a victory. The gall these activists had in bragging about it was amazing, but they had to tell the secret of what they did it burned their ears too much not to talk about it to others. If this conspiracy had not happened I might not have the relationship I have today. Yes I did use the word conspiracy, I think we have gotten past the shock of this word after Covid and everything we have experienced that used to be a conspiracy spoken in hushed tones.

My decisions after that election were based on what happened; the skewed results. I didn’t trust the usual media anymore, I became a political news junkie. Then on January 6th I quit Facebook the single biggest decision that literally put me in limbo on what to do next. It took weeks for me to actually decide to follow a group of Conservatives to Telegram though. It took me a long time and being somewhat bullied by church friends to get on Facebook in the first place changing platforms without my family or friends was a scary thought for me.

I know I have said it more than once. January 20, 2021 was my worst birthday ever. I truly felt numb it was like being in Germany in the 1930’s as this party with ulterior motives began inching towards ultimate power over America. Then in three months time; I was an absolute news junkie. Now it seems ironic. In those months I got to see a lot of Conservative articles and young people embracing Conservative and Republican values doing incredible things around the country. I saw things that really warmed my heart and made me feel like I was thawing out from the January freeze.

What I never expected was to find love while on this new platform. Real love. Distance has only deepened the thoughts we share with each other. Now I have a totally different outlook on alternative media and being a news junkie. My time with Bryan over the last 3 years has taken precedence over my tunnel view of Telegram and the information I craved. I simply craved his words and time more than his firm moved him from Boston to Los Angeles.

No longer being in the same time zone complicated our real time conversations. This week’s election feels like a healing balm for my soul. It also makes me understand that we could have been a missed opportunity. Unless God had another way for us to meet. When would I have made it to Boston on my own? Two years ago I briefly fantasized about working as a PCT at a Boston Fresenius Clinic. I literally looked up the clinics and the thought was brewing. My dialysis career was short-lived during this last administration as well. Only my Lord and Savior would know what decisions could have been though.

These results have brought about some amazing, America is now back, weight. It’s incredible. World Leaders are taking notice and Israel doesn’t have to worry about a backstabbing ally anymore. The Prime Minister’s Congratulations to Trump sounded like Benjamin Netanyahu was much more confident in where he stood with their longtime ally once again.

The consequences of an election…