Jewells of Thought

Late this afternoon I decided to watch one of the new movies on Great American Family. It was called “Finding Faith.” Some notable names like John Schneider and Vivica Fox were in the show. It has been a show that I have seen previewed but didn’t get the story-line until I sat and watched it today.

There are some movies that capture the essence of how I feel. The main character was a young married woman who had been raised a Christian and who loved to write. It felt quite ironic and yet there were and are some differences. She’s married and making a living, but her marriage was struggling. I have a different set of struggles but my boyfriend and I have had various struggles including a suitable Wi-Fi connection. When it comes to knowing what we want and feeling that spark of connection though, we are on the same page. Our lows have brought us closer to each other even in this chaotic online relationship.

This film glimpsed the believing writer who for a time gets thoroughly confused due to life-changing circumstances. We all go through these events. She felt called by God to write and answer peoples questions with biblical and gospel music quotes as answers. She was helping people so much that a big publisher wanted to reveal her identity. She had kept it hidden so she could truly do the work God had her to do and didn’t want the notoriety of being revealed to the public.

This couple’s biggest conflict didn’t unravel until halfway through. Their baby was stillborn. It changed everything for both of them. They didn’t know how to get back to each other. This is where she thought her faith was lost and her writing was uninspiring because she couldn’t break through the big yarn of emotions she was holding on to for several years. Her mom’s death is what helped bring her home and to get some clarity from her childhood preacher.

Still I wonder? Would I find myself so furious about the loss of a child? Would I forget the unconditional love of God because of the deep felt loss and betrayal at such a crucial time by the father of that child? It seems like light years away from me now considering our circumstances and yet it could still be a possibility! However, Christ did say worry not about the things of tomorrow, today.

The Lord has worked in my life with my various writing endeavors. Although, my time has also been put towards learning lessons from different jobs altogether. Yesterday was one of those moments for me. Hearing a friend and fellow church lady who knows my family well especially my Grandma made a loving comment. Right before I stood up to sing my solo she reminded everyone of Grandma’s love for the choir and ended her comment saying something that I am paraphrasing, she was happy I was now in the choir taking Grandma’s spot. God has always spoken to me through being in music and singing. Yesterday was an amazing day to feel like the me that I have been missing for a while. God brought me to this point and place for His glory yesterday. I am extremely grateful for that grace He gave me.

Have you been in this predicament? Does it ring familiar? Is God working in your heart about something similar?

What is the small voice of God saying to you today?