Jewells of Thought

As I mentioned it has been a rough 24 hours. My understanding and loving boyfriend and I have both been stretched to the limits in work and family situations. His support has been monumental though for the entire 3 years and 2 months as he says my support has been for him since day one.

Sometimes our passions and emotions get the best of us individually and things like last night happen. Growing with him in this relationship has been a learning curve. One that has made us stronger even in spite of the distance between us physically. Neither of us are perfect yet there are times we feel complementary together. Something we have never felt before and I truly believe it’s because God brought us together specifically. I mean I prayed for this very amazing man to come into my life for years.

Anyhow after getting through most of the day my medicine mix up from last night hopefully will be set right this evening. I will be making sure I take my medicine before I go to bed. Earlier though I got a chance to be at the Ladies Meeting at Grandma’s church for the first time. I knew pretty much every woman from all the years I have been around this church since I was born. Plus most of the women have been to church recently; it was exactly what I needed tonight.

Never in my life did I think I would be at Grandma’s church and a part of their Women’s Meetings, I have heard Grandma talk about these for years and I have taken part in a Ladies group at Fellowship it was quite similar and refreshing. Next time though Mom is definitely coming with me. I even got away without being the youngest woman there thanks to another granddaughter being there with her Mom and Grandma. I had gotten used to being the youngest at Fellowship though for a while there. In a way it’s good to be the youngest.

The only part of last night I didn’t like that I did was I went to bed unhappy with our phone conversation and quite frustrated. I have heard my Retired Minister Dean Hartman say he and his wife never went to bed mad. I want to adopt that policy, but last night I was so tired I didn’t. I don’t like being the one mad, but I didn’t exactly get a good nights sleep either. I can’t always explain our situation, but we know we have something neither of us wants to lose. God truly works in mysterious ways to get our attention. I still can’t believe it took me a whole 5 days to see that I needed to give this stranger a shot.

The life I have had: believing in God, going to Sunday School, teaching it even and having a wonderful Women’s Meeting has all brought me to this time in my life testing my fortitude, durability, love, forgiveness and last but not the least the giving of both of ourselves to each other from our distance.