Jewells of Thought

This morning I plugged in my phone to get it a little more charged. It was just shy a few percentages of being completely full once more. I hate having it less than when I go to an appointment and don’t know how long I will be gone.

So I didn’t predict this happening, but it did. I forgot my phone since it was plugged in. I am phone less this late morning, but I have my laptop for my Dad’s checkup. I did remember to bring other essentials for waiting but not my brain, that is in my phone.

Which means I can’t send this to all my platforms until I get back home. This will be posted a bit later obviously. Yet here I am writing without it; isn’t that amazing irony.

Yesterday as I thought about what song I should splash into and out of this terrible case of jitterbugs I thought of one particular song. Sunday I was asked to lead songs and my first impression was Me! I was absolutely terrified. Even though I have done it a few times but never on a Sunday morning. Smaller groups like Sunday nights and Wednesday nights are the times I have led the singing. It just came out of nowhere and fear literally assailed my body. That should not have happened because I did have experience and yet I haven’t done a solo in nearly 2 years again. My lack of preparation and letting doubts take over took a hold on me.

My response though worked on me all throughout the sermon. I knew I couldn’t leave church without talking to Brenda about making a turn of progress. I need to work on a solo so I can break out of this entanglement of fear and doubts about my skills and ability. It felt good to have that conversation after the sermon was finished Now I was putting that conversation into action. While sitting this morning while Dad was at his appointment I was listening to music. One song kept repeating in my head yesterday. One I have had for a long time but never performed.

For some reason this feels like the right time to work on it and perform it. God has a way of knowing the right time to bring certain songs to my mind. This song is a Gaither Quartet song. I love listening to Mark Lowry sing the lead with the guys behind him. The lyrics are strong with the gospel message clarity. The title is “I Do Believe.” There is a CD I absolutely love listening to repeatedly because they give it the quartet harmony the justice it deserves. Every song on this disc is amazing. I also have the sheet music to a lot of this music, but it’s for male voices. This version I have of ‘I Do Believe’ is for a soloist and a choir with the background vocals.

God willing with Brenda’s help this could be a goosebump song for me. I am looking forward to getting with her about this song. It will feel good to clear out the cobwebs of my doubts and let God work through the song and the lyrics for those who can hear the song work as He Wills it to do.

So I guess my forgetfulness today helped me determine my song choice. Listening to the music while waiting in the clinic’s lobby was a necessary step in that decision. The other impromptu experience in the lobby was seeing my Aunt and Uncle walk in not 5 minutes after my parents went in. Sometimes it’s a refreshing need to forget your phone from time to time. Things are different and you become more aware then you are with your phone 24/7.

Although, I got to catch up with my cousins activities. My Aunt was able to show me some fun vacation photos that might not have happened if things had been just a bit different.