Jewells of Thought

Last year I had a routine. This year it’s like my routine is to not have a dependable routine. I don’t know what it is it’s just the opposite of last year. 2023 was my year to rebound from a bad job situation and heal from the mental and physical ailments of it and that took nearly 7 months to do. I had a goal set and I went for it I was grounded and more determined to write 4 articles a day after getting up early to eat breakfast and walk first.

Maybe it’s the year of failures, the interviews that left me wondering what just happened! While I was writing I was constantly editing and reworking my resume and looking all the time. This year I feel somehow like I have grown inferior because of all those doors slammed in my face. It hurts to get an answer, but then the actual answers I heard left bile in my throat from the conversation. Who are these people who have the power to hire qualified people for good jobs and yet their behavior and language have literally made me falter this past year and a half.

I no longer trust Indeed, or LinkedIn with the horrible crap I have seen from the so-called best job placements online. The last best job application I sent was from November last year. I was selected to work on a piece for the editor and it was due on the day after Thanksgiving. I worked Thanksgiving afternoon and well into the evening on that article and felt really good about that piece. Then before I knew it it was December 1st and my book club started and I didn’t see the email that came on that day. It was actually the middle of January that I saw I was again selected by that editor for a good job on my article. The kicker though, it ended up being a volunteer position, because they couldn’t afford to pay anyone for this job. This was my moment to take a step back and do something that rejuvenates my mind and soul.

Here I am in the middle of May spending half of my time making crafts. After being told by cousins to try selling some stuff on Etsy I am actually getting to a place where I have some stuff ready. However, my allergies for the past month or more have been really tanking me energy wise on top of the kitchen fiasco. So I have no routine schedule anymore for any of my crafts or for writing.

This morning is my first time to get up eat and walk and have no where to go this week. Plus the medicine is working so I feel good this morning. This is the first time since I was in high school that I have needed a second dose of steroids to get over my allergies if I had to I don’t remember. That’s how bad I have felt in the last 2 months. Not to mention having an allergic reaction it’s been college since that happened the first time. Thank goodness it wasn’t as rough this time but it was still not good.

This was my, fake it til I make it photo, from a week or so ago.

Thankfully this morning I have been able to watch some news clips and I have some thoughts for articles coming together. Including the weeks worth of interesting tidbits from my appointments or being the supportive driver for others appointments this week. It has been like carousel ride that is for certain though and it’s not over yet.