Jewells of Thought

Do you ask yourself this question ever or once in a while?

Sometimes I get to a point where I look at my age or the holes in my family or just what I feel I am lacking in my life at this exact moment. Life changes, but it seems the speed only increases as an adult. I know I am not the only one to feel or notice this fact of life. It makes the moments and the changes more extraordinary and perhaps more difficult to grasp.

Watching the protesters from the past month has been extremely discouraging to say the least. It also makes me feel old cause it still feels like I was just in college at times, yet it’s been over a decade since graduation with my Bachelors degree that unfortunately feels worthless at times.

The turns of life can be obstacles or incredible new chapters that bring such unseen happiness to life. I didn’t think I was going to go to Terre Haute today or eat at Outback. I have had a couple different projects I have been working on and my thoughts have been continuously on getting them done soon. I should have gotten them done a week or two ago, but the kitchen predicament came up and then my allergies reared up leaving me in a literal fog of congestion. So on our way to Terre Haute the mowers were out working on the highway south of the town. There were several tractors and men working at the time.

We have had this waitress a few times. She is a wise soul and has an old fashioned gumption that is just refreshing. She starts out asking the oldest in the group their drinks and orders before going to the youngest. There’s just something special about her sweet disposition. She knew I would need a box for my shrimp and I asked for something to put my sauce in. However, instead of giving me a condiment cup she gave me two condiment dishes of the amazing sauce. Unlike my younger brother and others I use sauces in moderation and I hated to leave the sauce already on my plate, but she gave me two more so I couldn’t get over her graciousness. I like that sauce with mashed potatoes too and of course chicken.

When we left the restaurant my brother was the first one to notice this!

They parked the tractors so exactly that the mowers were aligned perfectly. The question is where did they eat? There are a little less than a dozen fast food and sit down restaurants they could have eaten at on the city’s dime. Olive Garden, Monical’s, McAlister’s Deli, we didn’t notice them at Outback though. It’s just kind of funny and reminds us of our farming roots. How much a John Deere tractor can affect us nearly 7 years out of the business.

Then I got two missed texts from my boyfriend. How on earth did that happen still escapes my grasp. Until three years ago I tried to keep busy with God’s little ministries he had for me choir and my love for history and biblical history. Having Bryan’s listening ear has been unmistakably grounding over the ups and downs from the ensuing years. Something I had always missed out on, having someone I could confide in about personal issues. I don’t think I could have gotten through the biggest surgery to date I have had to deal with without my Mom without Bryan because of that. The stress of not having her around was already difficult, Bryan helped me to vent my frustrations and he didn’t judge me for them. The deal was the week before Mom went into the hospital herself I was trying to discombobulate us from each other. I had to retract that when I knew I needed his calm demeanor on my side.

I remember telling him within the first couple of weeks of our texting that my life had taken some abrupt right turns. Wow, I had kind of forgotten about that until just now. That was still before I realized this big surgery was in my future.

Introspection is good and necessary to remind us of how decisions really make such drastic alterations to our lives. Looking backwards and smiling at the fumbles that brought about a relationship going on 3 years when I wanted to give up so many times yet our commitment is strong and deep seems amazing. God has given me such twists and turns to show me how far I can go with Him in my life if I trust Him! How did you get to this place in your life?