Jewells of Thought

Sunday I was able to post a few articles. I don’t know what it was in the air that day, though it was a different kind of day for me. I am not trying to quote Elizabeth from ‘When Calls The Heart’, but a Sunday was a big milestone for me and my boyfriend.

When I am out of internet service I am completely disjointed and off-kilter from our lack of correspondence. Something happened again Monday afternoon and each time I am isolated from him it feels more and more like I can’t breathe. Unlike last year I had an earlier start to my day this year I can’t seem to get out of bed early. Only if there is an appointment that forces me up. This morning, although we did get an earlier walk in and were done by 10 am, but again I had no internet and couldn’t post anything from home.

God gave me an idea a few years ago and I didn’t pounce on it, because of it I am where I am. Another stirring is rising in my chest something I am certain would be good in different ways for various people. Including my Grandma. I am in a position where I have noticed the good it has done in a different situation so my thoughts have lingered why not in that capacity and now while it matters most?

Sunday I was so uncertain what to do that I simply didn’t go to any church at all that day. Bryan was foremost in my mind and our ability to have some moments during the day as often as we could. Yet for the first time in my life there is no one or no specific Minister keeping me at any church. Honestly I am tired of making decisions as a single lady when in my heart I am bonded to one man. No matter the gifts God may have given me if I don’t feel needed or wanted I need to be where God wants me to be.

Surely God is working this out in my heart little by little. This little trip, I pray, will be beneficial as well. Time to get out of Sullivan and Greene County and smell the fresh air in a different location. Another Preacher comes to mind though as I think of this area we will be heading towards. I still hear his singing voice in my mind when I hear certain melodies. John Booker was the first Preacher I knew and the man whose preaching I was saved under. Goodness I miss him.

This week’s articles may be sporadic. Especially since I was unable to do anything yesterday, but I should be able to do a little something every day. I just don’t know if this is mean-spirited manipulation of our service provider or if God’s trying to say something in this internet silence. Am I supposed to learn something or was this God allowing me to work on the engagement/wedding project I was working hard on this weekend for a friend which is still only partially finished.

Do you get intuition about needing to work on something at a different time than you usually do?