Jewells of Thought

No longer in school Spring Break no longer affects me for now. My brother has taken his family to Florida though, for a few days. Otherwise spring break only means wholes in the congregation this morning.

Today has been a bit topsy turvy for me. I went to church, not Sunday School which I really don’t like making a habit of but I felt unanchored. It’s something I have been feeling for a while. I just don’t know how to address this with the other issues I am dealing with. Gosh I could use an actual spring break myself.

Grief, applications going nowhere and a boyfriend I have real feelings for but can’t seem to get close to are all compressing on me. How many new starts can I go through? It’s already been a year plus of highs and lows with possible job positions? My brain still feels fried from the last two pull-outs.

My creative urges with cross-stitch and writing have helped me. Yet I still feel lacking… in everything at times. Boyfriend time would be a priority if he could wrap things up in LA. What difference that would make though could be incredible!

Tonight at Church our first and only song was Dwelling in Beulah Land. The Hymnal I picked up to use was bookmarked by the Easter Card Invite in it and it was on the song the preacher picked to sing. Kind of puts a little perspective on the whole day and with talking and sitting next to Ms. Carol. She will hunt me down. When she notices what time it is and I’m not in my seat right next to her. Do you have someone like a Ms. Carol in your life?