Jewells of Thought

Heavenly Father, Abba, forgive my lack of focus. Just recently Lord… I came to a realization that after my aunt died last September I somehow lacked the words for these unique prayers although the ever pressing need was still present for such prayers in my life.

You know Lord, I still had things pent up that I was dealing with in different ways. I never thought her death would take as much out of me, I suppose as a niece. Yet I have daily or weekly reminders of her through some of her footwear and cross-stitch supplies she gave me years ago. Sunday nights at church I sit with a lady who once again reminds me of her because she shares her name. Carol Allen, a sweetheart likes for me to sit with her most church evenings it’s probably as good for me as it is for her. Although her husband’s name was Freddy and that also makes me a little homesick for my Papaw Freddy.

Why Lord… do I always have to be so observant and emotional about what I remember? Sometimes I can see myself in my grandparents so easily more and more.

The instigator for this finally is because we are officially in the month of March. Sunday morning when I realized it was Communion Sunday it hit me hard. This year not only has Grandma Rosie been gone for 4 years she has been in your presence this whole time enjoying her reunion.

Oh Lord I shouldn’t let so much time go by without releasing some of these emotions. Maybe I can blame it on being too busy instead of the fact that the last one was published not long after the funeral last fall. Still… so many of these were published because of her as a prayer request to those who would pray. It was one of the few ways I knew to reach out and attempt to do something when there was nothing else I could do besides my own prayers.

When the Holy Spirit is moving it is up to us to move with it right! It also didn’t help when I nearly drove backwards into a ditch today either. God was watching out for us today and I am grateful for His guidance and that I didn’t make anything worse. Lord, Thank You! In Jesus Heavenly Name Amen!