Jewells of Thought

Although I am no longer that young naive girl so excited to get presents on Christmas; I love making a Christmas atmosphere. The anticipation is most of the fun of Christmas. I don’t expect much in that way as much as I do the looks on everyone else’s looks from the stocking stuffers I am usually associated with.

Time has shown me what a real family Christmas looks like and those experiences are kept close to my heart. Much has changed since I was a pig-tailed girl. Then actually becoming one of Grandma’s Chief Elves was fun.

It’s such a special gift to have memories to warm your heart up with as you age. There may be times when you don’t think you will ever experience the same feelings as you did as a youngster, but you really do in different ways. Watching from the new youngsters perspective in your family can be eye-opening. Selena and my little cousins have been awesome in that way reminding me I don’t always have to act like an adult all the time but just interacting with them on their level having fun with them and the magic of Christmas appears.

Honestly I never thought this would be my life, no kids of my own. Believe me this was not my idea. Yet I will not demean myself and God’s will just to be a mother on my own timeline. Bryan has just recently reminded me of that fact. I don’t even have his excuse of being a workaholic exactly. My problem was the opposite being around family too much always adapting to whatever situation I was needed to fill for others.

God-willing time will not be against us. I look at current events and wonder if our country will even survive another year? The historian in me knows we have battled times of division before and yet God also has made it certain we will not know the day or hour of his return. However, I am not AOC and I am not going to let this climate change affect whether I get married or have children. I am not convinced there is much climate change truly happening that America can fix alone. We are already on a much different level than China and India.

It is my fervent prayer that if it’s in God’s will next year more than one change will come for me and Bryan. Time is precious. Christmas is the time to remind us of the greatest gift of all John 3:16. Christ was given to the world and ultimately rejected; but His death is our salvation.

As long as your decision has been made time means more about helping others see that truth. Time will eventually be up and a decision will have to be made. Will you see the light of Christmas or the dark shadows?