Jewells of Thought

Lord, my insecurities and fears have consumed my thoughts this morning. My doubts seem so overwhelming. I know life is constantly changing and altering in different ways.

Besides you, O Lord, there has been one other constant for over two and a half years. We have had some ups and downs, but we are best friends and confidants. We have both taken some heat from the other and persevered. Long-distance is not easy, but we have made it work.

Father, why does love seem so complicated at times? Love for a spouse, a niece, siblings, parents, or even grandparents. My boyfriend and I have only found each other in our mid to late 30’s. Yet because of your intricate handiwork Lord he did find me and I answered his message. I still do believe that was a miracle in itself.

Why Lord, though are we still having to wait to come together? It seems as though life is still passing us by while we are in separate locations. There is a very complicated reason why and something between us and those who know the situation in Los Angeles. Actually some people are even referring to me as Mrs. James in some conversations in California. Something that does bring a little smile and warmth to my heart.

Heavenly Father, Thank you for the little joys you have given us as a couple until we can finally be brought together. Give us the strength and the durability to endure what is still to come. I pray his endeavors will be hastened and will be free of LA very soon. Sometimes this wait seems too overwhelming to endure, but I tend to forget we are both equally lonely. Yet he still says that the thought of me keeps him warm and fulfilled. So why do I feel even more tortured right now!

Lord I pray you would work in both our hearts and minds through this season until your will would be done in our coming together as a couple in Jesus Holy Name Amen.