There is something off lately. Job applications don’t seem to be working, no matter how many different ones I make. It is difficult to admit when things you have been working on are seemingly failing.
How do you re-brand yourself when you thought you had done so this year? How many resumes does it take for one to work and make it towards an interview? Actions which were not solely mine resulted in failed job placements last year. Now they are haunting memories that only create questions. Never mind the effects those jobs had in those moments of time. The interviews I had this year have been very disconcerting the level of leadership in these particular companies.
I have already been sacrificed before by my employers. Doctors orders were explicit it was common sense my foot was fine until the remodel afterwards tears and a cyst later speaks volumes. My flat feet were not wholely to blame it was the floor. His orders were to not stand for work. My manager said she could stand in her boot so could I. Our situations were much different though, but I went on leave until I officially quit.
Unfortunately, this diagnosis has been an issue for me that will not completely fade away. Cream helps, but I had to dope my foot up in order to do what I did working at Dialysis Clinics last year.
Writing has been a blessing for me and yet I feel discouraged on many levels right now. Some very personal and infuriating events have happened that are uncomfortable to outright discuss. They are still raging inside me and I don’t understand God’s bigger vision of this situation. It seems so much bigger than I can handle.
How many times can a person be vulnerable enough to think yes I can take on this position only to get the interview and be told yes you have this then to have them rescind the answer? Yes… this has happened twice in different ways and different positions. Trust in the interviewer process is waning with what I have encountered this year.
Why does my routine of writing everyday feel more like craziness?
Do you relate to the craziness of stress?
What are you trying to juggle in your life?
Sundays are my happy days lately though!
Jewells of Thought 
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