Jewells of Thought

Why is love so complicated sometimes?

Is it simply because we let insecurities, fears and doubts take over?

Is there a way to un-complicate love?

Having never been married I don’t feel like I have any answers. Yet there are times I know the answers come straight from the Bible. We complicate our lives by letting other factors have priorities in our lives. Every family in America and around the world have been affected by divorce one way or another I would believe. Although, it feels more like a celebrity problem most days.

Of course, why even get married. That’s kind of their point nowadays. Marriage is overrated and ancient. I don’t digest that thought very well though. Marriage is meant to be so much more. Love is meant to be so much more. Growing up in my family marriages have lasted as long as 72 years and as short as 50 years.

Seeing more than 3 decades now I have observed a lot of marriages in my family and friends. Some have made imprints on me in various ways. Maybe that’s why I’m still not married, however this one relationship has been life-altering. Until now in the past 2 and a half years I never truly envisioned what being married could feel or look like. There have been ups and downs and we have made it through every single one of them together, that is after giving up 3 times.

We are already miles apart and I tried to force him away. There is something in this relationship pulling us together. No one has prayed as much as I have over this whole crazy situation. Sometimes it feels like God actually wrote our names on each other’s hearts. I have never experienced such encouragement that he gives me and I have done my best to do the same when he needs mine.

We are closing in on some of our barriers broken down. Yet it could still be after Christmas before any of this happens. Today was another big milestone in our coming together.

Is this why there are some complications with love?

Do we all learn to make it through our complications together though?

Amazingly enough our ups and downs have made us stronger, but can we last a few more months apart…