This weekend I knew my parents had plans and my brother went with them. I had two motivations having the house to myself and enjoying it and secondly time to ponder and write. It turns out I got a little bit of both done Saturday.
For a while I was beginning to wonder; I felt draggy and then with some time I felt better. Of course cooking comfort food is fun although I run into the trouble of making too much. Today I knew I would do the very same thing, but instead of forcing myself to use all that I made I prepared myself accordingly. My chipotle beef and rice mixture covered with smothered homemade verde salsa and cheese burrito was nicely complemented with nachos of the same mixture. For some reason I only put sour cream on the nachos and I put my favorite mild Taco Bell sauce in the beef mixture of the burrito.
Sometimes I think I should have been a chef. I love to play around in the kitchen it was so pretty yet I didn’t think to take a photo. I love that I have my own Verde Salsa mix already canned. I may still have another batch I can make too.
So after I had my awesome foodie experience I cleaned up and watched two shows one I have seen several times and the other was a new one. The only problem was that I was cuddled up with my laptop not Bryan. Both shows brought out my inner longings that I simply have to put aside for now. I really wish our predicament wasn’t as complicated as it is but we both signed on to this and neither of us are willing to give up on the other.
I do have to admit it feels like we are good together that we have been attacked precisely because of that premise. He knows how to calm me and even this week I sent him a practice audio that was supposed to be a video that got screwed up. It was my fault for not pushing the first button. He said it helped him to calm down that night.
I find it so irritatingly funny the one thing I didn’t want is what I have. An online relationship or rather online dating was an experience that was horrible. I can’t understand why we connect except that Trish Winders was right. When you least expect it it will happen. She was a force to be reckoned with just like her husband. I love them both and miss them so much.
Funny how when you take the little breaks you need you are rewarded by getting what you need done. Even if in little ways and not on a big scale. I had hoped to have several articles thought out or at least partially started. Now I have 2 written out and a third mostly done. Yet I didn’t get to cuddle with anything but my laptop only a few texts which are our lifelines.
Jewells of Thought 
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