Jewells of Thought

Tonight once again is a time of poignant reflection. Personally I have felt off since my accident back on the 2nd of August. Now as I have learned of a third accident this week… my emotions have been on a roller-coaster.

On top of those emotions I keep having little bursts of sneezing fits and my ears are still popping. I slept really well last night yet this afternoon I fell asleep for 2 to 3 hours missing my Dad saying ‘Night’ like we always say as he leaves for work.

Why do I feel like such a mess right now?

Yesterday was a lot of fun even if I had to take extra Zinc, Tylenol and Cranberry Juice. Hoping I had covered all my bases. My back pain did straighten out though fortunately.

I have learned that my time is not the Lord’s timing. Still… waiting for Bryan to finally be able to cut ties with his firm or for a job to say yes one more time would make such a difference right now. But I can’t be doing the ‘shoulda coulda woulda’ blues.

There are at least 7 wrecks that have had an impact on my life. Each wreck personally taught me and or my family something about ourselves. Two of them cost one a cousin of mine and a friend who lost a brother. Some of those feelings came back this week when the Preacher’s daughters accident happened Monday.

Goodness I can count more than 7 wrecks whether cars or motorcycles that ended up in 3 deaths just in my lifetime of my friends and family since 2003.

Life is so precious, I don’t understand how God’s timing works but I know His timing is right. As much as I feel out of sorts right now I am doing what the Lord wants me to do if I can just get over my physical ineptness right now. I have continued to walk with Mom even this morning, hopefully time rest and vitamins will all work together.

Bryan likes to text me this message, “Hope your day was as beautiful as your smile love.” So I hope this Rose makes you smile.