Jewells of Thought

How do you make your decisions? Do you have a process or is it decided on the magnitude of the question?

Do you fight with God in the direction your life is taking? Back in December I was going through a lot emotionally, physically and spiritually. I kept asking myself what God’s purpose was for what I was going through with my job. Yet that wasn’t even the entire spiritual warfare I was about to deal with on another level.

Do you have a Home Church or one you consider to be your Family’s Church? The Bishop side was the Pleasantville Church and on the Alsman side it was Bethel Church.

So in my head and my heart my Family’s home Church is and will always be Fellowship because we were there for a good 20 some years and because those people have known me since a was a teenager, most of them. Yes some pain and heartache has happened, but each and every Church goes through different periods.

Moving again was not in my peripheral image at all. God gave me some special circumstances that I will cherish. I fought to not fight this battle… I know why yet it still hurts knowing I have to officially make this decision. Making such a decision as quickly as I feel I have in the past 24 hours, has only taken me a day. After trying to just get through day by day, I admit some troubles have tackled me these past nearly 9 months. Possibly because I was too conflicted on this issue.

Knowing that some of my cousins had been making some incredible decisions themselves recently finally gave me the courage to stand up and listen to God’s whisper. Tearing up watching my little cousin in the baptismal was the moment I knew I had to follow suit.

So… why if my decision is right for me, does it feel like I am letting others down in some way? I am not good with confrontation, but skirting around the issue instead of leaving altogether isn’t good either. It’s hard to not admit I did feel lighter though, yesterday.

Do decisions take you awhile to make or do you wait until something happens where you have to finally make a judgement call?

Probably less over-analyzing and more prayer time would be more encouraged as well. Praying without ceasing perhaps.