Jewells of Thought

My soul feels embattled.

Writing helps my soul.

Church itself, helps my soul.

An enemy from within has shed a deja vu memory for me.

Only this is not just a memory… this is happening now in real time.

God is showing me an alternative future in an abstract way.

Two couples come to mind and in all reality I know mostly hearsay only.

I seem to be using the word dichotomy quite a lot in some instances, sorry.

Preachers are all different and I love my Preacher and I love my Church.

These couples though are so different… they are vexing me.

One couple has responded to me favorably.

The other seems to be avoiding me.

I am extremely intimidating… of course my family could very well be.

What vexes me the most is the fact I have tried to keep an open mind.

I have mightily attempted to be objective and not judge on hearsay.

Yet I feel I have already been judged and taken as a foe.

The favorable response has me asking a question of myself.

Deciding the answer will be difficult and not done without tears and prayer.

Do enemies appear in order to sharpen our words of steel?

Or are they to pierce and deflate their hot air?

Somehow I knew when I saw what I saw I would have to make a decision.

My Soul has felt this hoping things would work out on their own.

This twist of fate seems ironic to be seen favorably by this couple, though.

We have never met and they feel like old friends simply by their warmth.