Jewells of Thought

Life is all about how you deal with your highs and lows, right?

As Christians, we are incumbent to rise above the issues plaguing us. Last year to hold on to a job I worked through several things one by one, but the ulcer did me in. Different professionals in the medical field told me I made the best decision I could. Dealing with as many issues and underlying issues wearing down by body in one way until there were literally three distinct ways my body was being worn down. Working at a different Clinic was a nice change, but the commute wouldn’t have Yet I worked until it wasn’t worth it anymore.

No one could say I didn’t weasel out of the job. I worked with a brace and even an allergic reaction to soap. I believed I was working towards something that would be worth my time and energy not to mention the fact I passed the competency test. For a long time I asked why… or why am I so out of place here.

God had a reason whether it was for me to fight to figure out the job finally as I do believe I did somehow. The other reason I believe was to comprehend the other side of what my Uncle dealt with as a patient. I was the family of a patient who became a member of the staff and saw the inside of my Uncle’s Clinic. Not every family gets to see what I now have seen. It opened my eyes to the jobs of the staff, but also to what Uncle Mike persevered through for five years.

I suppose my ulcer was my conscience giving me a way out of the job, before I became as hardened as some of the minds I worked with in this field of work. To heal emotionally and physically I wrote I had to feel my emotions from my book. Delve into World War II once again and that is how I found a renewal of my purpose. The purpose God has always had for me, yet He wanted me to experience some bittersweet memories in order to find myself where I am now.

Humility comes from experience. Experiences come from doing various degrees of work that challenge you in your skill-sets and mental acuity at times. I am grateful for my time at dialysis, because it brought me to this understanding and appreciation for what the Clinic did for my family and my Uncle. For that I am utmost thankful!

So for now, my niece can use these for her doctoring!

Now though, I am writing like I never thought I could ever before. I am humbled by what my experiences have gained me and I feel happy about being able to write like this and have an audience. Finding an income to iron out some of the inconsistencies would be extremely helpful though. Yet God has put two applications into my hands all of a sudden. I may not even have to make a decision, God may have already worked everything out I just need to wait on His timing and be prayerfully mindful.

What does humility mean to you? What highs and lows have you been feeling? God is working… His timing is just not… our timing.