Jewells of Thought

Since I began this crazy journey of Jewell’s of Thought back at the end of March a lot has happened. Writing was a necessity after my traumatic working experience last year. Work on my book was progressing, but I had been looking into copywriting and content writing. Unfortunately everything takes money to make money.

Then the day I wrote my first post on Word Press was a day I had to release my thoughts on finding a boatload of, new letters and information to plug into the 17 chapters already finished. Now I had to do some research that I have yet to still fully finish. This is not the only thing I have been doing since life was upended as my last straw struck me right before Christmas. There is nothing I want or need more than a job and income to pay my bills. The Lord has been generous and has allowed me to heal these past 6 months; I no longer wake up with the ulcer-like taste in my throat. It literally just came to my attention that I haven’t had that taste first in the morning, I thought it would never die down.

However, a job has not manifested even after dozens of applications. Jobs I was well qualified for but there are always 100 other people putting in for the same job. It’s frustrating. I didn’t want to give up a dialysis career, but various reasons are keeping me from either dialysis companies. So then a medical scribe was the answer I thought; I loved learning medical terminology and I love to type. It was the perfect combination. Everyone wants experience or to be a nurse.

Honestly I feel like the devil is personally targeting me double time. Firstly to keep me down and out and secondly because my articles are what they are…

It has been just under 4 months since my first post. Would my articles be missed if I weren’t able to afford the Word Press fees? I was able to pay for one year, but if my current situation doesn’t change would anyone notice?

I love writing and I believe God wants me to write. Otherwise though, I am unsure of God’s plan. I still need car insurance and bills that need to be paid and Christmas and Birthday money is gone. Something has to give; I feel the noose tightening. I do whatever I can on Facebook with stories and reels, but I can’t afford to advertise. I have seen an increase with my Facebook friends and wow Friday night was big.

God has empowered this whole endeavor; I did not do this on my own. Still I am feeling powerless to change anything after 6 months, although I am healthier once again. My prayers are either being answered slowly or the answer is simply no job right now and this doesn’t make sense to me.

Have you ever felt this way? Trusting in God doesn’t mean I always have the answers. Two ideas from Word Press to earn money is to either create a newsletter for paid subscribers or to allow a donate menu. For the longest time I didn’t think the donation form was for me like an unwarranted charity I suppose. Some articles come easily and some take some precise research and a lot of editing and refining. Do you think they are worth the work put into them? Let me know!