I will assume this is about talking to someone who is alive! Growing up really seems to change a person’s demeanor. I would never have spilled as many personal elements of my life as I have done over the last few years.
Bryan, is my best friend, encouragement, he makes me smile, challenges me and has been integral to making some decisions. We talk all of the time, but with our 3 hour difference it’s mostly texting and at our more convenient times to do so.
After over two years of conversing online things are coming to a head so to speak. He’s a big-shot, workaholic, businessman who melts my heart with the lol messages and emogi’s. Having multiple state lines in between us has been good for us. We have worked through the distance issues and persevered, even the lack of accessibility to one another during normal hours, being different he’s the city man and I’m the country lady.
Even so, we are fiercely stubborn and have fought so many issues such as for me, fear itself, to get to this place we are at now. What we have both come to the conclusion is, that we are afraid of not taking this shot at being the couple we see in our future together. As much of a roller coaster we have been on, not meeting as we did would be scarier.
My life is so different because of the influence he has made in wonderful ways. I might not have had my dialysis experience if not for him. Being able to converse without needing a device will be absolutely refreshing for us. Time alone to converse with or without words as a couple will be a long time coming.
Jewells of Thought 
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