Today is an Anniversary of sorts. My boyfriend sent a message to me exactly a week prior. Two years ago today, I replied to his Hello. I remember how uncertain I was about this guy. For about two days I waited to see if he would take it back or get tired of waiting for an answer. I truly believed it was a mistake.
Sunday morning I still couldn’t get him out of my head. He had sent the message on Tuesday. I didn’t get it until Thursday and was still conflicted about this strange man Sunday afternoon. I didn’t mention this message to anyone until Sunday afternoon I finally told mom. After some praying and more back and forth thoughts, I sent him a message on the 21st of April an entire week after his text.
I wanted to be open to God’s will, but this terrified me. Disclaimer, I don’t suggest online dating, especially after a rotten experience. If it was good enough in the Bible it’s good enough for now. That was and still is where my head is on this issue, yet here I am completely contradicting myself. When I found out how much distance was between us, it did feel safer like there was a barrier.
Relationships are not easy and long-distance ones are even more difficult. The fact we have made it this long is a miracle. Our conversations became a lifeline when some family members were sick and in the hospital; he was there when I felt alone and powerless. We have challenged each other, calmed the other from our stressors and reveled in our thoughts of the future.
I admit the first text was awkward. Once we started communicating though, we spent hours getting to know each other together. We know so much of the other’s idiosyncrasies we seem to get a sense of when something is up. When our routine changes we either know something is off or that he’s working late or he knows I’m frustrated. We now have a two-year history of experiences that have driven us both crazy and brought us ever-more closer.
Yet I still don’t know what our future holds though…
Jewells of Thought 
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